My Name is Chintamani, and I am the founder of The Divine Gem
My life has been one of challenges and many changes. I have laughed, cried and learnt.
I understand how life can get hard and when there is no support or respite from the pain and anguish of the torturous events in life. I struggled when my brother took his own life the day before my 20th birthday. I had my first son when I was 19 but I was too young and immature to give him the best of me. I have lived with many regrets but to remain true to my nature I did not want to believe that life was a mean and horrible place, although I had experience many horrible events in my life and much more. Through a horse riding accident I had to learn to walk again, and while navigating myself out of my own misery, I had to save my daughter from her own dark thoughts of depression and self-harm. Meanwhile living in a marriage that was not fulfilling or supportive.
"My life has shown me that we can create new where there was only a barren landscape. To triumph over the hard to make them hardly matter. To turn the energy of sun into the light that burns inside of you to create light where there was only a dim view of creation in itself. "
It is fair to say that I have had a decent amount of life being tough at times. While I was young I had experienced being molested when I was 5 and again when I was 9. When I was 13 I experienced my first sexual assault and again when I was 17. During a 3 ½ year relationship I endured alcohol abuse, drug abuse, verbal and mental abuse and finally I experienced physical abuse to the point where I was being strangled to death and in that moment I knew it was the end of my life. This was the man that I was prepared to live with despite the abuse.
The only way that I could find any relief was to begin a journey away from the pain and towards the one thing that I thought could truly save me from enduring more of the same. I had experienced many triumphs and tragedies, but the reason I would like to share this with you is so that no other being need experience another day in pain. No other human being need to suffer in silence but to show that there is a light that can lead to the warmth of their own heart, and share kindness, strength, courage and wisdom to believe in themselves and their own power with heart.
Through these pages I will share with you my deepest thoughts and feelings and create a pathway that is signposted to give distinct insight that can carry you through a myriad of life experience to give inspiration to start the journey to your own heart.
I hope you can join me and laugh, cry and learn with me, as I find my way back to my true self and my own heart.
When travelling on your own journey to your heart it’s not me telling you what you should think! It’s an opportunity to think something different. Through my experience I have learnt that life can give many opportunities’ to believe, in many different things, and in many different ways. We all have had times when life has gotten hard, sometimes it is harder than most. We have made self correction a myth and worked on blaming others instead of seeking further truths that came at a price.
Sometimes it is an opportunity to grow, that gives us the most grief, mainly because stretching ourselves can create some growing pains. Extending and challenging ourselves is often like learning a new talent, but where do we start when life has been so hard? There is one resource that is unlimited, and that is the energy and effort that is created and flows from our hearts. When I started to look for reasons for the heartache I felt, I found it hard to really connect to others. How could they know how I really felt when they could not feel or understand what I had genuinely gone through?
My life has shown me that we can create new where there was only a barren landscape. To triumph over the hard to make them hardly matter. To turn the energy of sun into the light that burns inside of you to create light where there was only a dim view of creation in itself.
One of the many of today's problems, woman and men have developed through the constructs of what society believes the way to true happiness is to be bigger, better and more powerful. However there is one thing that has been negated through the diligence of the marketing media, love yourself with great intelligence and passion. To serve and honour others as well as yourself. Talking from the heart can be felt and heard without exception, but is it what we really want to listen to? Do we want to be known for the love in our hearts and in our minds or do we need to be heard through our wounds and fears?